By: Bianca Sparacino
One day, you’re going to wake up and your heart won’t be beating out of your chest for all of the wrong reasons. One day you’re going to cook breakfast to your favourite song and you’re not going to feel like the walls are closing in on you. One day you’re going to look in the mirror and you’re not going to recognize the person looking back at you, because you changed. You changed, and that is the single greatest reality of moving forward; that is the incredible outcome of surviving the hardest parts of your journey.
And yes, sometimes life is going to kick your teeth in. Sometimes it is going to confuse you, sometimes nothing will make sense, and everything will be messy. But you’re going to learn. You’re going to fight tooth and nail, and you’re going to grow. Slowly but surely, you’re going to grow.
You’re going to find your people. You’re going to stay up until 5am on a random Tuesday and talk about your past with someone who enlivens you. You may even fall in love. You’re going to go to concerts that ring truth through your bones and make you feel like your cells are vibrating. You’re going to stop and stare at the ocean and you’re going to feel so small, yet so fucking big, and you’re going to finally, finally, feel like things are falling into place. You’re going to be moved by your life. You’re going to feel everything all at once — you’re going to feel complete.
Trust me when I say that one day it’s going to hit you — that you woke up happy, that you’re smiling for no reason, that your hands aren’t shaking anymore. One day, you’re going to remember what it was like to be you a year ago, or three years ago, or even a week ago, and you’re going to be so glad that you fought. You’re going to be so glad that you kept going.